2003-09-19 - 2:21 p.m.
Shit! I seemed to have lost my sense of purpose. Holly, can you check to see if it's under your sofa?
I'm lonely too. Apparently, I like having friends and family close by so I can hide from them. Especially after this last visit home which was packed with visiting. Every moment alone was extra valuable.
And now every moment is alone and I could just kick myself. Sorry to everybody for not noticing how much you meant to me while you were nearby.
I miss you.
However, I'm not coming back any sooner. I think my sense of purpose might be one of those pets in a bad Disney movie that will find her way back to me no matter how far I go.
Loneliness, too.
I'm in Chihuahua right now. It's not a bad place for a gigantic, trafficy, industrialized city. Of course, I'd cut the worst place in the world 500 miles of slack when the sky is blue and there's a cool breeze blowing through it.
